So, my sister threw her babyshower without me, which was okay, but she erased me asking if she wanted a gift, like I said. She deleted me. My family is often too embarrassed to bring me places. In HS, it was much the same way. All the girls without dates to prom in our group, went together and made sure not to invite me. The people who care about me are getting old and busy. I let this sister buy dog food and things she needed but had a hard time affording. We went to Branson, once, and her old boyfriend and she got a feast at Joe’s Crab Shack and all of my clothing money. I wanted her to have a good time. Then she stole money from me, and I didn’t care about that. What bothers me is how she treats people, in general.
Growing up, we had issues, don’t get me wrong, and I wasn’t perfect after being abused in St. Louis. The aggression went away after I turned 14. We were kids in a bad situation. I still said sorry.
She has been placed in anger management, and I’m in social skills. Part of her anger is a consequence of drugs. I’ve seen, thanks to her many times, people go into rage when the high starts wearing off. We almost hit cars on the HW when her boyfriend ate some poppers.
Social skills has taught me a lot about how people should interact. I’ve said many times that I wasn’t seen as equal in school and always bad, so I can be extreme, but mostly hide from people, go into my corner and shake.
I hope she gets the help she needs, too. Perhaps I was harsh in saying that her baby will probably be special, incredibly mean, but she is a partial drug addict. To get a feel for my family, I once took her cocaine and buried it in the backyard. My mother slapped me for going through her stuff and ignored me when I said M had cuts all over her.